Well I am thoroughly embarrassed by that last journal entry of mine. I feel like such a cry baby. I won't ever give up, and i think I have a new refreshed out look on art and drawing. I posted a pic on Penciljack, and asked them to "tear it apart". Becareful what you wish for is all I have to say. But I am so glad they did. People aren't always 100% honest because they might come across as rude or mean, but when you can get the straight up truth you really can improve upon your art. People told me things I might never had heard if I didn't give them permission to lay it on as thick as possible. This is ramblings but I guess I know what I mean.

I dunno I am kind of bummed out right now. I thought about just giving up on art and drawing. I mean it's a hobby of mine. I love doing it, but I guess I want to be at level I am not, and will never be at. Sounds whiney and pathetic, but I really hate that I can't break out and do something good. I am not moving forward or backward and it seems like no mater what I do I am just sub par. I think most people have no idea how frustrating this feeling is. I see all these other artist get better and better every day. And I see others who are just awesome and I find myself wishing for just a little bit of thier talent. I have put in the work. I have given it my all, but maybe I am just not cut out for this hobby of mine. I guess I am into art for the wrong reasons also. I want to tell stories with what I draw, but maybe I am just better off writing them. I am sure I will feel different in the morning...

Well it has been about two years since I drew my first picture of Tia Gibons/Gibson. Two years ago was when I started working on my Comic Aequitas. And in that very long time I have grown in leaps and bounds as an artist, but I am still not where I want to be with my art. So I have decided to put Aequitas on hiatus and try to improve my skills. I am going to experiment with new styles in penciling, inking, and coloring. I really need to break out of my bland and mediocre style of drawing and coloring. Nothing I have done as of late has been really inspired or creative. So it just makes sense to take a break from my personal projects to grow as an artist. I plan on cranking out a lot of new stuff, all of it is going to be different from the current crap in my gallery. So look forward peeps, I'll be back.

Uh as jacked up as this sounds, I just realized that shading makes my pictures look better. Like actually good. I avoided it for so long because I found that it impeded my coloring process, but I don't care bout that anymore. I will work around it. Starting after now, all new things I draw will have a lot of shading to them. It just adds so much depth and reality to the pics... Gah, I can't believe I never thought to do it before, or that I actively avoided doing it.

Well I did it. I finally finished, er nearly finished my new site. I used Dream Weaver 4.0 and Microsoft Front Page to do it and I am pleased with the way it came out. It is pretty simple asthetically but there was a lot of work put into creating those damn frames. I don't have a lot of content yet, but there are a few character bios and galleries. Also you can get a synopsis of the story. Yes I will have an online comic one day and it shall be good! Oh yea and people are going to read it too.

I guess a link would be nice...
[link] or click the website button on my main page.